Ramblings of A Misguided Soul

Blogging Using My Mobile

2008-07-10T10:10:00.001+08:00

I have not touched my computer or lappy for a long time.

I have not seen it for a long time.

I read.

I eat.

I sleep.

This is as much a trial test of blogging using MS Word, publishing it to Blogspot, which will hopefully feed into AND.

Testing testing testing.

Good Bye.

想回到过去，试着把故事继续。不再让你离我而去。

2008-04-28T23:36:00.002+08:00

我无数无刻都会突然之间想到你。

我一直拿着电话。

你还在吗？

这么久没和你说话了。我看我真的把你吓跑了。

想回到过去，试着把故事继续。不再让你离我而去。

2008-03-02T23:33:00.001+08:00

Leaving behind a trail of broken bodies, broken hearts.

The act is getting tiring.

The game is getting interesting.

The attack begins.

Rip Slyme – Super Shooter

2007-10-21T18:51:00.001+08:00

Now listen, Yo!

People put your guns up

First, I'm gonna run dat

Running around, I gun shot all of those guys

Here come sound boy, live in this world

Wisdom, strength, and luck all dance! Flow

I'm very frank inside of my swelled head!

Punching in the savanna, and with one punch

It's a simple knockout, can-can-can

One time for your mind, live through it

Around the world

It lingers, the pain is always there

Surrounding the sublime gods right now, is something borrowed

If an unsown seed blooms, whose is it?

Living, and throwing yourself into the arrow of faith, more more more...

There's no peace at my destination

Stand up, and don't give up the fight

Right now, that's right, this instant die die die

Big shooter, living busily and blazing

Beat you up, a break from cutting through

Shot shooter, the craziness of living busily

We're aligned, break at point-blank range

Big shooter, living busily and blazing

Beat you up, a break from cutting through

Shot shooter, the craziness of living busily

We're aligned, break at point-blank range

Link (link) up (up), super gun shooter

No boy caan test we hotness, light up!!

Free(free) dom (dom), a peak before the sun darkens

Oh please, if we're going to fight, what about peace?

Swing (swing), chop (chop), pull it out, gun clap

Sway just below, the earth is danceable

Rock (rock) your (your) body (body moving)

Un (un) un (un) un (un) un (un)

We gonna shoot, attack crew

He's coming, advance!! Grab the scrum

We gonna shoot, attack crew

He's coming, advance!! Grab the scrum

Where I'm going (where I'm going), up ahead (up ahead), everything (everything), will clash (clash)

Clash (clash)

God knows what's coming up

Pray firmly, with a critically Shinto heart

A lone killer cutting through

Grasping the trigger in order to survive

A set up full metal jacket

Up the tempo, and enter the rouns 2

To a brand new world, brand new

Unease and guns, a two hand shooter

Taking the Shintetsu, flattery, the motions of counterattack, his art is jeet kun do

It's not an athletic event, red blood is flowing

Even if you raise the white flag without stopping

Points are added, and the murder is accelerated

Can't get any harder, my body is loose

From here, let's continued, yet still

Hey, start, take off

He's the far-off public enemy

Chasing after the smoke of unease, and the haze of the heart

First off, fabreeze

Nowadays, displeasure smells of a selfish plan

In my head, a warped frisbee

Conviction that fails to reach out is bland

A siren resounds in my head

The hopes that everyone was waiting for, you're a hero

I stand here thinking that I'm losing

Standing, grasp hold of it, rook on

Defy even the act of waiting.

The wandering gunner, the aloof hunter

Continue, well, who's next? Your number's up

S.O.S. check and test

If I stand up suddenly, it's sudden death

Nice attack, nice defense

It's necessary, that's right, a survival sense

Go on living, go on living, here we go, here we go

With high-score makeup, you're a hero

Big shooter, living busily and blazing

Beat you up, a break from cutting through

Shot shooter, the craziness of living busily

We're aligned, break at point-blank range

Big shooter, living busily and blazing

Beat you up, a break from cutting through

Shot shooter, the craziness of living busily

We're aligned, break at point-blank range

2007-10-13T11:28:00.000+08:00

Things never go the way you plan.

Love me.
Love me not.

Love me.
Love me not.

假如我很大胆的说爱你。

没有给她

2007-10-08T23:06:00.001+08:00

今天没有送她.

不知道.

本来要给的.

就是感觉不对.

不知道.星期四就是了.

歌曲的旋律

2007-10-06T00:27:00.001+08:00

我现在正在写歌.

心中的旋律始终无法得到我平时得到的那种平衡.

心中杂念不能平息.

听着周杰伦的《夜曲》，王力宏《星期六深夜》让我想起了她。

离开的她还在我心中占了一个重要的位置。

你给一个人不完整的爱可否对那个人公平吗？

Current Playlist

周杰伦《夜曲》
王力宏《星期六深夜》
林俊杰《杀手》
F.I.R,阿信《需要你的爱》
Rip Slyme《Super Shooter》
飞轮海《不会爱》
五月天，陈绮贞《私奔到月球》
张敬轩《酷爱》
A Chord,东城卫《够爱》

她今天落下泪了

我的心随着伤了.

我的泪跟着掉了.

希望她能好一点

希望她能快乐点.

今天睡得甜一点.

今天看到我今天以前的第一个拍下的MTV.

过去不想提了。

轻轻松松摇摆

2007-10-02T13:01:00.001+08:00

惊天动地的爱情.

这个最unfortunately就是我的所有爱情的trademark.

一个平凡的爱情是我的所求。

我只要安安静静的呵护着她。安安静静的看着她。安安静静的喜欢她。

一个轰轰烈烈的爱情。。。多么的暧昧，多么的惊天动地，多么的黑暗与光明又如何。

平凡也是需要勇气的。

因为平凡是一个无法在动作，举动躲避的无奈。

为了你要《改变自己》，

好想对你说《超喜欢你》，

好想陪你一起跳《迷迭香》，

轻轻在你耳边唱《杀手》

我的天啊。

我又来了。

Inheritence

2007-10-01T22:32:00.001+08:00

Was out at dinner just now.

With Amanda.

Wrong person for dinner right…

Not that Amanda is not a friend.

Just that she's the wrong person for the mood I am in.

It means I turned crappy.

I have always been influenced by the girls I like…

Currently, I have inherited Xuehui's sense of righteousness, Eve's sense of blunt honesty, Hebe's sense of flamboyance and finally current, her sense of perfectionism.

I really hope I stop inheriting more traits.

Just one.

Last one.

Warrior With A Crying Face and A Bleeding Heart

2007-10-01T22:20:00.001+08:00

What have I done?

Not much.

It is not my life anyway.

I am afterall the most important right?

Yeah, right.

All I did was destroy the lives of a lot of people.

I did not enjoy it.

They were the bad guys.

But it does not mean it is right or easy to.

War with a bleeding heart and tears in my eyes.

This should be a religious affair.

Wind Surfing

2007-10-01T17:52:00.001+08:00

Is it over yet?

I am not so sure.

The thing did not go as well as planned.

There were a few fishes that escape the net.

I am worried about the fishes.

For one, I hate seafood.

Well, I am currently riding on the crest of the wave now. Will see if I can live through the wave when it crashes.

Hard to begin anything when the other party has no time. Lol.

Let's GO!

Catastrophe

2007-09-29T18:35:00.000+08:00

Phase 1 is Over.

Catastrophe begins in 4 hours.

I’ll Be Free

2007-09-29T01:38:00.001+08:00

I am now in K box. Listening to people sing.

Emotional is a dreadful thing.

I cannot think of her.

I need to clear my mind.

Tomorrow is a important day in my life.

I do not want to die.

I'll be coming back.

I'll be free.

Tremors

2007-09-28T15:31:00.001+08:00

Phase 1 : Tremors

Phase 2 : Catastrophe

Phase 3 : Aftershocks

Today is Phase 1.

After all, for a war... What better song than Rip Slyme's Super Shooter.

Should I or should I not?

I am scared. But a leader should be fearless. That is why I wear brown pants.

Wahahaha.

I will not be able to see her tonight. So I have to live to come back.

Whirlwind

2007-09-26T16:46:00.001+08:00

People who you have a knife above their head are not supposed to fall in love.

Still remember when we were young? When we did the point thing. Point 1. Point 2. Point 3. Every single variable must be listed out. What did we do? Spend hours memorising points and the path of points.

I wrote out my points. 844 points. 884 actions causes reactions. Probablities.

How did things turn out like this? 8 years ago. We stood together. 8 years later. We die divided.

Not like we have a choice.

Wrote your will yet guys?

If any of us don't make it back, I love you guys.

But we always forget each other right.

After this.

New lives for each of us.

We'll go to each other's weddings and funerals.

Whirlwind. Less than 2 days.

If you read the book, IT… I think it describes us pretty well. Except for the group sex part. whahaha

Lost Identity

2007-09-25T23:01:00.001+08:00

Do the blood of your parents carry over?

I really do not know.

I am tired.

I need my old persona back.

I lost it. Recently. Now I cannot get into the identity.

Got another offer. Considering it seriously.

Going back into song writing again. So that people can steal from my song bank.

Lincoln Gu - Get Emo. Cannot think.

That will definitely be a problem I have to rectify somewhere down the line.

Notice my thoughts jumping around? It is called madness.

Wonder how she is right now? But she's not the kind who replies to sms. Or maybe I am not close enough.

Already deleted one friendster account. Deleting the other one @ at the end of this week.

Should not have gone with her today.

I left office early because of the bad news. I did not know I was worth too much.

Every emotion is intensified and mutiplied. Even anger. I can feel it being repressed. I am trying to control it.

All I want is a little time with her... And this spoil it.

7 mins 12 secs. One window. 4 places. 49 people. Amen

GANTZ

2007-09-23T22:13:00.000+08:00

I am addicted to Gantz. To me, it is wild and addictive....

Blood.

Sex.
Violence.

Limbs ripped off.

Don't you just love such stuff?

It is so full of life. Not full of crappy heroes. But people who get thrown into situations where they get killed.

And that is what it really means.

Ordinary Heroes who turn psychopath just work for me so much. No wonder I don't even watch Singapore TV anymore.

Miracles

2007-09-23T00:57:00.001+08:00

She's wonderful as a person. Touched by all those little complexities....

Enigma.

I hope I will be able to understand.

It was nice seeing her smile and laugh.

You know, when life hits you hard, it is little things like these that hold you together.

Anyway, Happy Birthday Elle. Live on for all of us. We cannot afford another loss.

I can almost understand Shuya Nanahara. On why he fights for the true smiles of children.

Just like him, I will hold on.

I won't lose.

Finally

2007-09-21T23:03:00.000+08:00

okay. Finished my transcripts. Like fucking finally...

this week was one of the worse of my this year.

I cried. I bleed. I bruised my knuckles.

I wonder when she will recover. It's her birthday tml.

Than I am starting a new conflict again soon. All in the name of peace.

Omg. I told Da Jie Da today that my life is built based on anger. I have so much of it in my life.

Got to settle down soon. I want to... go after her.

Wrote a new song. It had 4 motherfuckers and 37 fucks. Only with murder and killers.

And guess what, I discover JJ's 杀手 to be a relatively nice love song... I mean seriously.

Duel Of The Fates

2007-09-16T21:34:00.000+08:00

Addicted to OSTs recently.

I am the kind whose music choices are influenced by his mood.

So as not to scare people, I will not put my playlist here.

FUCK.

If Elle dies, it will be my fault again.

Turbulent Times

2007-09-16T16:35:00.001+08:00

If I can live through these times, I can live through anything.

Job.

Sucide Watch.

Power Struggle.

Threats.

Protection.

Guilt over break up.

Love of new girl.

Bright Day

2007-09-15T23:40:00.000+08:00

I was on shoot today.

Never sleep yesterday.

Death Watch.

She called today.

About work things.

Even though it is nothing, it brighten my whole day.

:)

Mistaken

2007-09-13T15:01:00.000+08:00

Someone read my blog wrongly.

lol.

And I appeared in Wendy's blog. FINALLY!

But...

2007-09-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

Went for dinner...

It could have been better....

Oh no. It's getting more serious...

Need to cure it and soon.

But....

Stress.

How should I go about it?

Want to know her better

2007-09-11T23:38:00.000+08:00

I cannot give up lo.

Will never give up, I really want to know her better.

She seems such an interesting person. :)

Saved two lolipops for her.

MRT tomorrow. Hiaz.

Mouse Sat.

First Blood

2007-09-11T08:47:00.000+08:00

Omg.

I am so afraid she'll get upset.

If she evens get upset, there'll be blood drawn somewhere down the years.

After all, I spend ten years to destroy someone, only to have that person die of a heart attack before it comes to fruitation.

For me, there is no forgiveness, only redemption.

Love And Pain

2007-09-10T22:18:00.000+08:00

Saw her today.

Not much to say.

Da jie da keep trying to bother me, trying to find out. But to keep her quiet, I told her I told someone from the company. Which is true. From a certain point of view. Damm. I hate sitting at my seat now.

Distance. Promixity. 天地都不对. Be careful what you wish for.

She's serious in her work. :)

Someone fell sick. Sick during shoots is a fantastic thing. It tests human limits. It is really the lowest you can go. If people die along with you, yah too bad.

What else can I say.

HAte is a powerful motivator. Now this hate has been tempered by love.

Is it so obvious? I can feel the distraction. Feeling is such a tiring thing.

Lincoln. You are love sick. Kill yourself. I think I never bring my book back. Shit. Need to study.

Will start treating everything like crime scenes.

Got doggies waiting for me downstairs office. Have to avoid them.

Time moves so slowly. Slow Motion. Secretly liking someone generates this hyper awareness. Notice i say awareness. Not speed.

My work is slowing down. Need to wake up soon. I punched the wall like 12 times today to generate pain to wake myself from my distracted state.

Shifting between anger and love constantly is a tiring thing. I am losing that edge.

Passion And Attitude

2007-09-09T22:34:00.000+08:00

When a person uses words like passion and attitude, remind him that there is a belief attached to words like this. A belief that a person who is really passionate and has the correct attitude will die for. And when you are really passionate and really has the attitude, when they are really not just words you use on others or to impress others, you will lay down everything for that passion and belief. And when you are willing to put down the ultimate stake, your life, you are ready to step into my battlefield, my circle. Welcome my brother.

Lincoln Gu YuanHao

9th Sep 2007 1028 Hrs

Again

2007-09-09T17:03:00.000+08:00

Here I am again.

After transcribing.

And of course also doing my accounts. Which due to some reason got corrupted.

It is a wonder I am not insane yet.

How many agains will there be in my life?

Withdrawal Syndrome

2007-09-09T13:03:00.000+08:00

Cannot sms her.

Cannot sms her.

Cannot sms her.

Die.

Die.

Die.

A Standing Ovation

2007-09-09T00:52:00.000+08:00

Recently, due to my sudden depression at the sudden tumult in my love life, I have been bothering a lot of people. SO even though nothing has happened yet, I must thank the few people who has helped me wallowed in my self-pity, self-delusion and depression.

I trust I have managed to irritate them enough. So here I have to write a blog entry to thank them.

Ling Ling
Suffering the bulk of my assualt, she has to listen to me crap day and night about her. Well, actually only the night, since she's working in the day. She cannot provide love potions though. And she has not given me any solutions yet. Sigh. But she did tell me to break up with my ex... which goes on to...
My Ex
Thanks for understanding why I have to go. And why I have to do this. And why you know why... So I shall not go into it. Yes, Darth Cassus existed because of you. Both the dark and the light... and for all the clothes you bought which brings me to...
Sweety
Part time fashion consultant, part time love consultant. Yes, Sweety has been advising me on clothes once, but recently she tried to advice me on love, which like clothes did not work out really well since I do not listen, because normally I listen to...
Wei Peng
My brother. lol. He pulled me back from darkness, advising me not to two-time, which along with everything else. Not that I don't listen to Sweety eh, but brothers are brothers. and he knows about my double life like...
Sasa
She normally keeps telling me not to get involved in fights. But I am a man of great love and peace. She has been providing advice to, while asking me what colour bikinis she should buy. Hello, I am thinking of someone else. Not you in a bikini. unlike Sasa, at least some other people know when they should talk about certain things and shhh about others, like...
Ah Lira
Shhhh. Shhh.. what you know, others don't have to... I know what you did last... shhhh...kkk... we shall move on to...
THe slow one...
Don't even think she knows why my mood is shifting around, but yah, lol. at least my other collegue....
Da Jie Da
who's more aware of things, she got quite close to uncovering the truth. Oh no, but I shall keep it a secret, not like what I once did with...
Ah Bee
A girl I formerly like. To my great "misfortune", I did not successfully go after her. (Thank the gods). lol. Now we crap on MSN regularly.lol. Don't worry Ah Bee, I will not make the same mistakes I did with you... lol...

Okay. It's OVER. Awards Ceromoney all done. Now GO sleep. SHOOO.

终极一家

2007-09-08T23:21:00.000+08:00

Being addicted to 终极一家 recently. I mean, if I ever do a freaking show, I will do something like it.

Lame and damm funny.

It broke every rule you can hear of. And more.

At least, it does not try to be serious. And than fall flat on its face.

Will want to watch it with her. But don't know if she will like it or not.

I still like her though. If I am dating her, I think I might even watch less 终极一家.

And 寒 reminds me of her!

OMG.

And I stil really think WU ZUN cannot act.

A Massive Sense of Irony

2007-09-08T10:50:00.000+08:00

"Both my love are out on shoots and here I am on MSN, talking to a former love. If life was not so funny already, I will be laughing at the sense of irony fate has choosen to bestow on me"

Lincoln Gu

Bored on MSN

Picture Of A Sith Lord

2007-09-08T01:09:00.000+08:00

I mean everybody should have a look somewhere. This is Darth Cadeous (Hope I spelled it correctly) Lazy to go and check. He's the latest Sith Lord to hit the Star Wars Galaxy. And seriously, he's Anakin Skywalker's Grandson.

Luke Skywalker's his uncle. Han Solo's his dad. And Leia's his mum. And he turns out to be SITH. So much for proper upbringing.

A lot of comparisons have been sadly made between Jacen Solo and Me.

And sadly the comparisons are valid.

I don't have the force though....

But yah, I do emphatise with him. Maybe emulate him a little. Whatever.

Darth Cassus

2007-09-07T19:58:00.000+08:00

I was granted this new nick recently, so here I am. milking it for all it is worth. I mean it should be expected.

I am falling to the Dark Side.

And a Sith Name is just the next step.

Darth Cassus.

Never know what Darth means, but Cassus according to the gossipy bunch is Latin For Empty.

I never thought of myself as that empty, but what the hell. Whatever people say.

I've been refered to as an emotionaless bastard though. That must be where that empty comes from....

Nah. I am too lazy to do that self-introduction today. Probably tomorrow. Or whenever.

Maybe when I am in a mood later.

I am... way so fucking depressed.